Dazed and Confused!!

If you were to ask me what song title describes my current state of mind, I'd say "Dazed and Confused" by Led Zeppelin without blinking an eyelid!! Even though in my case its not because of a woman, the emotions are pretty much the same! I guess its got something to do with the fact that CAT is approaching, and I'm nowhere even close to my "A- Game"!! I know I need to work harder, but just can't get myself to. With DI & LA still being my Achilles' heel, I should be sitting on my study table right now, and devouring Tables, Graphs and the like for breakfast, lunch and dinner!! However, its a very different scene out here.. Quite the contrary to what I just said. I'm actually sitting out here devouring season after season, episode after episode of just about any show I can get my hands on.. I'm surprisingly finding myself getting hooked to a new show every day!! Yessirie... that IS my CAT preparation.. Multiple episodes of any random show a day, and then spending HOURS & HOURS looking for some of the lamest videos ever!! You won't believe some of the crazy stuff I have unearthed!

Coming back to the topic, I really don't know what to do about my state of mind. I know I have a lot of energy, and maybe a lot of drive too. But I just don't know how to channel it in the right direction. So last week, I decided to speak to a good friend of mine about how I've been clueless about what I've been doing, and he suggested that I probably need to find a purpose in life.. So, thats all I did this past week.. Smoke pot and ponder. Put my thinking cap on, and kept wondering what my real calling in life is.. Unfortunately, I didn't get any answers!! This could only mean two things: either I'm outgrowing "herbal therapy" and it doesn't have the same calming influence it used to, or I've been given really crappy shit!! I think its the latter, because the "herbs" have never let me down!! I feel my brain works better when its baked.. At least that's what I'd like to believe!! I need to find myself a good source, or atleast some sort of calming influence which helps me find out my true calling. Guess pot, not love makes the world go round!! Its the universal solution to everyone's problems.. Works great as a painkiller, helps patients with a variety of diseases (its been prescribed by a lot of doctors to treat glaucoma, arthritis, hypertension etc.) plus it makes you more tolerant and peaceful. I know, its wonderful isn't it??!!

So, if there's anyone in Delhi out there who knows where to get primo quality herbs, please do let me know!!